Month: May 2020

trying to find ways to help me fall asleep, starring at a device probably isn’t helping, right? Although, this is the first time I’ve looked at this screen.. Im yawning but cant actually find myself wanting to fall asleep and I have no one else to blame but myself really. i don’t even know the point of this post, but i felt like writing something and i mean why not, what else am i going to do, stare into the darkness… i feel like im going to pay for this tomorrow, but whats new?!?

late night thoughts tend to be the most extreme and if you’re anything like me, you find yourself thinking absolutely everything, from relationships, to why a toilet is called a toilet and not a kitchen…

I found myself feeling incredibly lethargic and unwilling or unmotivated to want to do anything over the last few days. Purely because I think being confined to my house, has got me feeling a little suffocated. I’m probably not the only one thinking this though and when I woke up this morning I had to have a serious look at myself in the mirror and remind myself of everything I am grateful for and that I am incredibly lucky to be where I am. I woke up today for the first time in two days and reset my self-care cards, I left my phone wherever it was when I threw it last night. I opened up my doors and windows to allow the morning air to come through and cleanse the room. I pulled my daily cards, said my daily mantra, and then done a 20-minute yoga session in the privacy of my own room, only wearing my underwear and a shirt. It was incredibly invigorating and I felt much better and back to myself again.

I think everyone goes through times in their lives and more so, being in rahui for as long as we have been, where they are starting to feel like they’re losing their minds and sanity. It can be very challenging facing these times, regardless of whether you have mental health issues or not. I hope whoever else out there has been feeling this way, is able to pull themselves through their shit. We’ve gotten this far, we got this ya’ll.

Me te arohanui, Hine xxx