Since coming into rāhui, as mentioned multiple fucking times beforehand, I have been using it as a time to reconnect with myself. Mind, body, and soul. With that being said I find myself thinking about my purpose quite often and although I love absolutely everything about my career, I know that I am destined for bigger things. I love working with children and families and everything about teaching because I know that I am a natural nurturer, but as of late I have been thinking about how else I am able to pursue this.
I noticed that I am an impulsive person and regardless of what other people will say about some of the things I have done or some of the people I date or have dated, I have always been the person to see it through. I’ve learnt my lesson multiple times and I’m not saying I regret half of that shit, it was a lesson well experienced. I don’t know where I was heading with this little part, but I am going to keep it in this post none the less. Where was I now. . . Oh, I was talking about how I can feel it in my soul that I am destined for bigger things and that the title of this excerpt is called follow your heart. I have a number of things that I have had to confront and comes to terms with recently, all of which are good, in my mind at least and every single bone, feeling, instinct is telling me that I need to follow my heart. With my career, with loving life, with following my purpose or at least my journey to find my purpose and with possible love interests (I say interests, but there really is only one). I don’t know where I am going with this now, but needed a place to write all of these thoughts out. This is a clear interpretation of how my mind works. I could be talking about one thing and then go off onto something else completely different and then so forth. To anyone that needs to hear this or if anyone even reads these things in general, follow your heart, do what your heart and soul are telling you to do. Move overseas, fall in love even though you’re afraid, travel alone. I am done living life for everyone else and want to start living it for myself. I want to start following my heart. And it knows what it wants. I am happy knowing that I know where I am headed and what is in stall for me…
Me te arohanui, Hine xxx